tender hearts, tender mercies

I know, that for a time, I believed this: that sometimes the men of the world treat women better than the ones in church but I was wrong.  God showed me otherwise.

Godly men may not be perfect but they fear God and they listen to Him.  By that, I mean that even if they fail they are humble to ask forgiveness from God and then from the people they have wronged and are willing to repent. 

They have tender hearts towards the Holy Spirit that allow God to speak the truth into their hearts. 

I know Lord that when you’ve ordained the time for me and my husband to meet, you have prepared us well by going through the little deaths every day, rising from every fall and stumble and the constant “letting goes” to borrow Elisabeth Elliot’s lines.  You have the best for me – whether it is marriage or a life of singleness.  My heart and my life are Yours.  You know my innermost desires.  They are not hidden from You. 

Still, you have the last say.

Marriage is a union of two imperfect individuals brought together by a perfect God, a loving Father who seeks the best for both of them. –mine


faithful and true

He makes everything beautiful in His time*. 🙂

*line from my sister Happy’s email signature

20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. – Ephesians 3:20-21

I’m believing God for lots of things and dreams to come to pass this 2011.  First, I’m believing that this nation will change as it turns to and knows God.  I’m believing for a thousand things both big and small, some secret and some worth telling. I’m believing that my co-teachers will know God.  But this I know, my God is faithful.  His promises are yes and amen in Christ Jesus. 🙂

where is he, Lord?

There are good days. There are also not-so-good days when the waiting becomes what most of the world calls “stressful.” The stress comes from the reality of being 30 and single and the proverbial biological clock is ticking. I would be a hypocrite if i’d say fear is unfamiliar. There are times when I tell God it’s okay to stay single especially when I take note of the tuition fees in different preschools in the city, when I’m with a married friend buying milk for her son and when I see a pair of shoes. Those are the times that I am grateful I’m still single at 30.

But then, there are times when the desire to raise kids, serve a husband and minister to others together seem to be an attractive option despite the possibility that new pairs of shoes will now come once in a blue moon. So, I told the Lord I can’t really decide what is best for me and, if possible, He will be the one to decide for me on that. Of course, I won’t deny the fact that the desire to marry outweighs the fear of all those expenses I listed above.

So, where art thou, my beloved? Hmm, these are times when my heart tells me that the only thing I need at this time is Jesus. So why does my mind tell me a different thing? Help, Lord.

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.—Philippians 4:6-7