still hopin’ and praying

I was so sure Bro. Eddie would win. I had no doubts. Call me childish or childlike but I sure believed he was winnable and that the Filipinos would see the need to vote in righteousness and justice into office. The Filipinos proved me wrong.

When the votes were counted and Noynoy and Erap were at the top of the list, I could not believe it. In my anger, I raged against GMA, Gwen and I could not help but ask God “why?” It was all so obvious, the May 2010 elections were a make-or-break event but Filipinos still continued to vote for a Gwen, a GMA, an Ecleo, a Faustino Dy over a Padaca. My logical mind could not comprehend why of all the senatoriables, it was Estrada and Revilla who topped the lists. ??? Why did Bongbong Marcos make it to the top 12? Have they forgottten what Papa and Mama Marcos did in the 70s? It was surreal.

I really felt a bit down and angry – super mad – about the election results especially with Gwen winning as Governor again instead of Jun Davide. All my whys have no answers at this time. I had to include Gwen and GMA in the list of people I had to forgive before I took communion tonight. (sigh)

Maybe, just maybe, if I weren’t a Christian, I would have stormed the gates of Malacanang as a suicide bomber. But then during worship tonight, God spoke just one statement to me that made me cry and took away the heaviness and despair. He said “LET MY WORD PREVAIL OVER ALL THE VOICES IN THIS NATION.” Listen to My Word over the despair that you feel over the election results. Listen to My Promises that one day this nation will change. Listen to My Word that I hold everything in my hands.” That gave me peace. Peace to believe that things are not as hopeless and worse as it looks whenever I’m reminded of the fact that Gwen is still governor. (sigh) Help me Lord to forgive.

And His Word reminds me that I have no right to point fingers at the corrupt and unrighteous because if it weren’t for Him I’d just be like one of them. It’s only the Blood of Jesus that sets me apart from them. Maybe if I weren’t a Christian, I’d either be a suicide bomber or a corrupt politician. And it’s only because of the Blood and Cross of Jesus Christ that I’m neither of the two. Lord, teach me to be merciful like You.

So I’m still hopeful and will continue to pray that this nation would turn back to God.

How do we change a nation?

The May 10, 2010 elections is fast approaching.  It’ll be my first time to vote.  After 12 years since I became of legal age, this is my first time.  I am both excited since this will be the first automated polls in the country and, at the same time, apprehensive.

I’m not sure I want to vote.  When I look at the candidates, I am reminded of the saying “between the devil and the deep blue sea.”

My heart cries “Lord, where will change come from?”  And that’s how God got me.  I was looking to men for change instead of looking to Him to change this nation.

This has always been a constant question in my mind whenever I’m praying or talking to God:  How do we change the Philippines?  How can we change the hearts of men and women in government and in the grassroots?

I don’t think it’ll be sipag at tiyaga nor galing at talino or pedigree that will transform this nation.  The solution has always been God.

Programs, well-crafted policies and decrees will fail if the hearts of men remain corrupt.  Hearts won’t change unless there are God-encounters.

It is only when the River of God flows through this nation and the fire from heaven burns the injustice, the corruption and the deviousness in our hearts that this nation will see change come to this land.

Lord, we really need you.  I need to fast and pray for the coming elections.