crossroads

the godly woman

i would love to teach History in these heels! wooh!!!

{all images from pinterest}

Selah.  I’m thinking of quitting my part-time college teaching next semester as honestly I’m constantly exhausted physically from studying and grading papers until the wee hours of the morning.  It’s been taking a toll on my preschool teaching duties and responsibilities (my day job, so to speak). Also, I’ve noticed that time has seemed to become a luxury these days.  I miss going to the revival services every Tuesday – honestly.  Thinking and thinking.  They want me to teach two subjects this time.  A course on Philippine History and one on Jose Rizal.  What to do, God?  Need help and wisdom.  My Practice Teaching or practicum subject will also be next semester.  Decisions, decisions and more decisions to make.

I wanna decide based on how I feel physically – now.  Tired and pretty much exhausted.  But I’m also thinking about the eternal implications of my choices.  Lord, You alone know.  Of course, I’d love to hear You tell me “go ahead, stop teaching” but I wanna hear Your decision.

What do you think?

P.S.- Since I’m trying to avoid thinking about the decisions to make, I’d rather surf the net for another James Rollins’ book.  And oh, I stumbled across two very fascinating blogs while I was checking out my pinterest.  The Atlantic-Pacific and Bess Friday’s Photoblog.  You should check them out.  I’ve never seen outfits like Atlantic-Pacific’s and wedding and portrait photos like Bess Friday’s. :))

Here are some of the photos from Atlantic-Pacific and Bess Friday…

I super love the necklace!

image from here

interesting combo!

via

i literally exclaimed "waah" with envy at this get-up

check this outfit here

brightly colored

seen here

i love the modern audrey hepburn-ish look.

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and Bess Friday’s photos…

beautiful

via this post on Bess Friday

awwwww...

{my Soul Surfer day!}

I don’t know why bad things happen to us sometimes but I have to believe something GOOD is going to come out of this. – Sarah Hill in Soul Surfer in response to Bethany Hamilton’s question on why terrible things happen to us in life. 🙂

{A teenage surfer girl summons the courage to go back into the ocean after losing an arm in a shark attack.}

The line above got me.  Most of the times we subscribe to the adage (consciously or unconsciously) that says” Once bitten, twice shy” and we sometimes let the pain, failures and mistakes in the past define our present and future.  But I dare say that in Christ, all things are made new!

Last weekend, I was a stay-at-home gal as I was down with the flu and a bad case of colds and I decided to watch Soul Surfer.  Good thing I did.  God spoke to me about faith, love and fighting for your destiny.  Walking with God does not assure us a cushioned life but He has promised that He will make ALL things work together for our good. 🙂

So, I’ll go back to the “water” and “surf again”.  🙂 Right, God?! 🙂

But for me, knowing that God loves me and that He has a plan for my life, that no shark can take away and no contest result can shake, is like having solid rock underneath me. Bad things are bound to happen to everyone. That’s life. Here’s my advice: don’t put all your hope and faith into something that could suddenly and easily disappear. And honestly, that’s almost anything. The only thing that will never go away, that will never fail you, is God and your faith in him. – Bethany Hamilton in here

What a loving promise!

I Love…

…being a preschool teacher.  It’s not one of the most stress-free and exhaustion-free vocations in the world but oh the joys and the blessings of being a teacher of the li’l ones.  Here are some snapshots of my classroom before the class started courtesy of my head teacher, Teacher Kharoline. 🙂

{Math & Language Table, Reading and Sign-in Areas}

{Art Area with the kids' sheep templates for their attendance}

{Reading Area}

Routine Wall

{Blocks area and House Corner}

{My outfit post at the Reading Area the day before the classes started}

Teaching is a calling, a mission and a vocation. 🙂  Thank God I said “yes” to Him…this time around. 🙂

grateful heart bunnies

 

Why bunnies?  I love the word bunny ‘coz, first, it is sometimes what I call my kids as a term of endearment.  Second, I’ve always associated it with something cute, makes you smile and happy on the inside.

My heart is grateful, thankful, blessed that God chose me to teach kids.  When I look back on my journey in becoming a teacher, it was messy, hard and full of fire (so to speak) because I ran away.  Little did I know that when God calls you to do something, there is joy and an unbearable lightness of being to borrow Milan Kundera’s title. 🙂  I’ve made lots of mistakes this first year but received a thousand blessings more than I could ever have prayed for or dreamt of.:)  One thing is for sure.  I am grateful Mariles and Teacher M. gave me the privilege and the chance to teach these young kids.  I’m not perfect but I’m learning.  Learning every day by grace and by love.

Three weeks from now my kids will finally move up to a higher level.  It is bittersweet.  Jazz was right.  The first batch is always special.  With them, you learn from your worst mistakes (though I’m sure there’ll be more learning) and celebrate your best moments.  One day you’ll find them cute and maybe the next moment their “challenging” behavior won’t look that cute at all.  A kid may pull your hair without reason except to tease you and the next minute they give you a warm hug and say “I love you, Teacher.”

Nevertheless, I have learned so much from these kids and from T.M. and M.L.  🙂  I’m trying not to think about the fact that next year, I won’t be smiling, greeting and hugging them at the door as we welcome them to class every day ‘coz they’ll be in the next classroom.

I won’t have Z. climbing up my back when I sit on the floor to put on So.’s shoes.

Won’t have Se.’s “Teacher, let me smell your coffee” with his chinky eyes turning into slits.

Won’t have Ma. sitting on my lap when it is story time and Teacher M. is reading a wonderful story that even I am enthralled.

I miss A. right now who is in Manila. I miss her questions and I will always remember that time I sprayed her mosquito repellent on my eyes because I turned the spray in the wrong direction.

I will miss J.K.’s tales about going fishing and putting the worm in a hook and catching a fish with it after he saw G.E.’s gummy worms.  Or that “dinosaur lechon manok” 🙂

And with that, Za. joins our conversation that he caught a big fish yesterday and that he just played bowling that morning. *wink!*

Of course, I will miss G.E.’s princessy skirt and hugs with a jump and her “Teacher, I love your shoes!”

And So.’s twirling and pirouetting on the mat peppered with “I’m a ballerina, Teacher!”

Or the thought that I won’t see Ga.’s drawings of lizards (big and small) and her big round eyes that brighten with a smile when she likes the story you just read.

Hah, and who can forget Ja. with his hand on his hips and saying “No” when you tell him to put on his Crocs so he can play outside.  And when you tell him “Okay, don’t put it on.”  He will quickly put it on instead.  ??? 😉

And of course, I will miss my U. who threw a wooden block at me during my second day and who I struggled with to forgive for almost a month but who has become my beloved student now.  An unforgettable one who loves to spank Teacher’s butt, run off and look at you with a teasing smile and who gives you warm, big hugs every day and wants to be carried no matter how heavy he is.  I will miss U. for sure.

 

Just keep on holding on

Excerpt from Victoria Boyson’s email “Hannah’s Destiny”

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Promise Through the Pain
“In bitterness of soul Hannah wept much and prayed to the Lord” (1 Samuel 1:10).

I have heard people say that God would not do anything to them that would cause them to suffer. They say, “God wants to bless me!” and I say, yes, God does want to bless us, but some of our greatest blessings come out of our greatest pain. If we do not experience the pain, it is more difficult for us to appreciate the blessings we are given. It did not please God to cause Hannah such misery, but He could see the future and He needed Samuel. The only way He could get the promise to her was through the pain.

God does see your struggle and your pain; He hurts with you and weeps with you. He is begging you not to give up, because He can see your future and it is great! “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and a hope” (Jeremiah 29:11).

The Lord’s presence remained with all of Israel through Samuel, because Hannah chose not to give up on the dream she had in her heart. She chose to believe that God loved her and saw her as special even when others did not.

If the Lord has given you a dream or a promise of something so wonderful that others cannot receive it, keep it hidden in your heart as a secret treasure, until the moment of its birth. Some things should be kept between you and the Lord. He is jealous for your heart and wants you to Himself. Do not look for acceptance from anyone but Him; hold onto the God who loves you. His will will be done!

Pray this with me:

Dear Father,

Keep alive in me all that You have promised me. Cause all the circumstances that I must walk through to turn me toward You, not away from You. Help me to seek You and Your approval, and not the approval of others.

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This email came at a very opportune time. It was the word of encouragement that I needed. One thing is for sure, God is good and His timing and ways are good. Thank You, Jesus. Help me to hold on and persevere.