still hopin’ and praying

I was so sure Bro. Eddie would win. I had no doubts. Call me childish or childlike but I sure believed he was winnable and that the Filipinos would see the need to vote in righteousness and justice into office. The Filipinos proved me wrong.

When the votes were counted and Noynoy and Erap were at the top of the list, I could not believe it. In my anger, I raged against GMA, Gwen and I could not help but ask God “why?” It was all so obvious, the May 2010 elections were a make-or-break event but Filipinos still continued to vote for a Gwen, a GMA, an Ecleo, a Faustino Dy over a Padaca. My logical mind could not comprehend why of all the senatoriables, it was Estrada and Revilla who topped the lists. ??? Why did Bongbong Marcos make it to the top 12? Have they forgottten what Papa and Mama Marcos did in the 70s? It was surreal.

I really felt a bit down and angry – super mad – about the election results especially with Gwen winning as Governor again instead of Jun Davide. All my whys have no answers at this time. I had to include Gwen and GMA in the list of people I had to forgive before I took communion tonight. (sigh)

Maybe, just maybe, if I weren’t a Christian, I would have stormed the gates of Malacanang as a suicide bomber. But then during worship tonight, God spoke just one statement to me that made me cry and took away the heaviness and despair. He said “LET MY WORD PREVAIL OVER ALL THE VOICES IN THIS NATION.” Listen to My Word over the despair that you feel over the election results. Listen to My Promises that one day this nation will change. Listen to My Word that I hold everything in my hands.” That gave me peace. Peace to believe that things are not as hopeless and worse as it looks whenever I’m reminded of the fact that Gwen is still governor. (sigh) Help me Lord to forgive.

And His Word reminds me that I have no right to point fingers at the corrupt and unrighteous because if it weren’t for Him I’d just be like one of them. It’s only the Blood of Jesus that sets me apart from them. Maybe if I weren’t a Christian, I’d either be a suicide bomber or a corrupt politician. And it’s only because of the Blood and Cross of Jesus Christ that I’m neither of the two. Lord, teach me to be merciful like You.

So I’m still hopeful and will continue to pray that this nation would turn back to God.